Peiyi :)

camwhore.

2012-02-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

Into people's shoe.

2012-01-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

You will never understand until you personally experience or do it yourself.

New year has been good, except for day 2 where i quarreled with my mom over th color of my shirt. :(
Met up with my cousins which we hardly did for th past few years.

Have been always wanting to blog about this topic, but has always been procrastinating about it.

My mom has been working alot these few days. Normally she would work on just every weekends, or perhaps some Friday and on Monday.
Speaking about which, i had another quarrel session with my mom relating to this too. :( , which i would share later.

Being a housewife isn't easy. What's more is that you're th only one that's supporting th family. That's my mom.
She has to work on th weekends, she has to take care of th 3 of us on th weekdays, still worrying for us even on weekends. Doing house chores on weekdays. It may seem very normal in a typical house hold in Singapore, but until you did th housewife's part.
When you wake up in th morn, you have to start washing clothes, noon came and you cook lunch, after eating carry on with th pile of laundries, sweeping th floor, mopping th floor. Evening hit and start preparing dinner. After dinner wash dishes, carry on with laundry with th addition of more after th children got home from school or outside. Night time, rest for awhile, bring in clothes, fold clothes, boil water,rest, finally sleep.
This goes on for a cycle over and over.
Th worse is that no one's helping you. Even if they're at home.

I did all these things except for th morn part because i'm schooling obviously. And i totally understand how it feels like, when th person at home should do their part, but they didn't do it, and you had to do it all by yourself.

Now i'm even more gratitude.

Thanks God for such a mom. ;')

Thanks God for situations in life that make me understand th reason why.

Th sat that just had just past, i worked in th restaurant my mom's working in. So th thing is this : Th restaurant she is working for is lacking of man power, and she asked my sis to go over to work, but she's working. Then my mom asked me. I rejected as we'll be celebrating lorraine and chenming's birthday. But my mom keep pushing me, so i had no choice but to say just 1 day.
I have no options to chose whether i want to work or not.
My mom promised th boss that i'd go for just 1 day.
On th day itself, i went down and for some reason i was super mad. I'm fuming inside. I even learnt that th reason why th boss children ain't 'working' that day is because they had to study. That is th boiling point. So they had to study i don't need to ?
Reality struck me hard. Real hard. It's different how a boss children and a employee's children is being treated.
I tried my best to chill, but i can't. I was totally on eruption like a volcano, and i was having a bad attitude. Even to everyone there.
When i'm super mad, don't talk to me because you'll get it even when you're innocent and even if i tried to chill. I was putting on a long face.

Thankfully i've a aunt that explain to me that th devil is robbing me of my smiles, and she proclaimed in th name of Jesus that th anger be gone.
After a few mins or so, there's this peace in my heart and from that moment onward i was working with such peace.
What guilt me is that when i'm totally mad, i gave my mom my angry death stare. :(

I must have hurt her so much. ;'(

Thinking back about it, th look i saw in her eyes.. It was like, 'daughter, i love you so much, th reason why i scolded you , i wanted you to do all these things is because i want to give you th best i could have. I know you're mad, but what can i do? At least, aft today you can have some money. I'll continue giving you my best, my silent one.'

You'll never know th stories of others until when you walk in their shoe. Each fall, each jumps, each run, each pain and joy in every walk.

I don't know what i'm writing about anyways. I'm ain't making myself clear hahahah.

Goodnight.

First week of school

2012-01-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

"Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterward."- Vernon Law

Hey everyone. So it's friday already, and i believed all or not most of th sec 1 students are having fun or not in their Sec 1 camp.
And also i believed it's most school's cca orientation tomorrow !

Alright, summarizing up th first 5 days of school. No, 4.

I believe all th sec 5Ns in Sg misses their express friends from their batch, just like me. Having to walk to school without seeing th faces you used to seeing for 4 years is just so weird.
Friends spraying their hair black, but majority of them still get caught. Th first 2 days of school morn check is strict, but i managed to pass it, except day 2.
Wore my color contacts aft recess for th first day, and decided to wear directly to school as no one catch me, but on th 2 day i got caught for my skirt. Lol.
All of us didn't sit where we used to sit last year, we had a different seat we chose this year, which is awesome as we get to sit with our awesome friends. But maybe th fact that our seating arrangement isn't rearrange is because of th teachers we had for Form and Co-F. It's partly a good and a bad thing tho.

Homeworks are coming in, we're sitting in more seriously this year now.

I could have enter other neighborhood school as a express kid easily, cause th T score isn't that high then, and could have graduate by now. But it was in God's plan to be in this school. :)

Taking a chance this year. To study even harder.

New Year

2012-01-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

In this new year, i do not really want to name out my new year resolutions, not even want to try to think of it. Because i know i will always procrastinate on it. And end up not fulfilling it.

I hate it when my friends always come to talk to me, only because they have a agenda, motives. They even rarely talk, hardly even reply even what saw or know, only when they want to get th most out of my mouth then they approach me.

It's perhaps just me or something

Writing down all my thoughts in this space because i know hardly anyone bother to come to read it.

I am not emoing.

I was just pondering about things in life.

Don't pretend you know it all. It only makes a joke out of yourself if you say you know me when i hardly even tell you 2% of me.

Spending th first and second day alone. Everyone's working. Friends ...

I realised i've become a hesitation. A hesitation to most friends out there. When they only come to find you, you readily accept with all your heart, straight away. But when you find them, they don't give an answer, they just 'er' 'hmmm'. Why can't you just make up your mind.

I'm glad i'm th person who thinks alot because it make me know life.

I do not have a friend whom i can go to anytime, anywhere, any moment, anything.

But i have a God. Who never forsake. To know this fact, it is a bliss.

I lost th thing for ranting. Maybe it is just because i haven't rant post for a long time already. Additional to that i am lazy. Furthermore i feel like contradict myself. Thus, i feel i'm better in posting out my thoughts.

My blog is like my best friend. I can never get all secretly about anything.

Only when i choose to post what i want to reveal to th world out there.

Conclusion : you can never know me.

Concluded : You will never know me.

A new year, a new chance. Thanks God for a new year like this. 1 year ago i was a wretch. i was wreck.
1 year later i am serving happily in th house of God, being a daughter in His house, loving people. How glad.
1 more year to reap and sow harvest in NC.
1 more year.
1 more year to rise in my academic.
1 more year of love.
1 more year of life.
1 more year of blessings.

By th mercy of God, i have 1 more year. Not only that, i have many years down th road. 2012 will never happen when we're on th acceleration mode with God.

With God.

My God never fails.

I still remember th times when i cry myself to sleep every night. I was screaming out silently. Torture. Suffered 2 whole year of migraine. It was there every hour, even when i sleep. But there will be always a warmth with me, so amazingly. Cutting my wrist almost everyday, but there's this voice, there's this heart that's hurt by my actions.

Ever since i accept Christ into my life, th first night i put my Bible along my pillow as i closes th book and hit th sack, from that night onwards i stop having migraines. There was a total peace. A peace in my mind, in my heart.

When i was around 4 years old, i was lying on my tummy next along with my aunt, who was th only Christian in her generation, our entire family, she was listening to a song call 'Amazing Grace'. That was my first exposure to Christian songs.

I was only so young.

There was a warmth around us, and i can feel it. I thought it was because it's a normal afternoon, but i was wrong. Even th whole room was so peaceful.

Amazing Grace, How Sweet That Sound

Indeed, it was so sweet. It IS still sweet. Th voice singing out for th Lord is just so sweet.

There was tears in my eyes.

After that day, i asked my aunt to show me th lyrics.

I was so young. I didn't understand much.

But i fell in love with God.

How can i remember things so well when i was so young ? I don't know. I just remember. I can even remember a scene when i was only 2 years old, clearly.

I read th book of Genesis only, because th other books was too difficult and hard for me to digest.

At 5 years old, for some reasons, my mom was mad at me, she caned me, and i ran into th room, stood on some table and i wanted to jump from th 5 floor.
Because of th situations at home, (i was still living in hougang with my grands then), i was so stressed out, th thought of suicide follow in.
In p3,4, with th additional pressures from school, i was always angry. I was always full of angry thoughts, suicidal thoughts.
I barely read th bible anymore. And i was still at Genesis. Over and over again.
Once, i thought i could end my life by swallowing shampoo foams. I tried it, it was so bitter. So i gave up that method. I used to took my long chair and stood by th window from th 9 floor, looking down.
But i was afraid of dying too. Due to my buddhist background, people who lie, will get hook by a long hook at their tongues and be tortured in a certain level in hell. I was so afraid. I lied frequently. By nature. Also, people who commit suicide will be wandering souls forever aka hungry ghost.
In sec 1, i stopped reading th bible altogether. Because of th fact that my another aunt took th bible away, and i do not have a bible of my own. I slashed my wrist with th sharp corner of my house keys.

I started all th pathetic things.
I go into a relationship during th first week in school of th first year, started slashing my wrist with penknife.

Th more i feel pain th more my heart is less painful ; for a moment.
I was like a saddist. I got addicted to slashing my wrist, -- my wrist, th place where you wear your watches, not any other part of th arms, but thanks goodness there was no scars. I wallop in self pity. always.

But God was still with me.

There He was, looking at me with His gentle face. Collecting my tears in a jars and in different category.

I am a Child of God.

In sec 3 i had th most heartwrenching f/s problem with my clique. I fell.

But there was this hand that holds me up.

And now, it wasn't God found me, but He had been waiting for my all these years. I finally took notice of Him again.
And now, i love Him with all my heart. I am not a little girl anymore. I know how to think right now. And i'm so glad, i accept Junkiat's invitation to church last december Christmas.

It wasn't fully Jk's that i am a Christian now, but because of God, and because Jk is willing. My future has been drawn out. I was place in Heart Of God church for a purpose, a destiny. My first church, my only one. Th first 2000. Running with th dream team in th second decade, th 'second generation'. Okay 1 gen is 20 years, but whatever.

I'm so glad He's in my life. He's always been. ;')

For now i am not alone. For now i know i'm love.

This is my God.

He never fails. He never leaves me.

Once a daughter, always be.

School !

2011-12-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

Overcome, be not overcomed.

Disclaimer : Th above picture of meme is dedicated from a friend to me; facts

Hello people ! School is starting very soon ! Apparently i'm so happy when i got my results for 'N' level but that day was so intense and nerve breaking for me.
But i'm so lucky that i'm able to get my grades, good enough for me. :) But i thought i can do better.
Receiving th Navy letter, their offers are so appealing, i almost wanted to go for Navy but th thought of math and engineering just scares th shit out of me.

I'll upload and caption photos later on, perhaps in or in another post ! :)

School is starting in a week time and i'm so chill about it. Maybe except for th worries of waking up on time, which is probably 6:30am. I've been waking up at 12 plus every single of my holidays and occasionally i'd wake at 8plus in th morning, but i would stress myself to get up from bed -- which is a terrible thing to do at myself.
I haven't buy my books yet, and today is th last day of buying/collecting books. I should have gotten free textbooks and miscellaneous items such as uniforms, socks. But because my father delayed in giving me his payslip which resulted in me not being able to submit th form. Well, why am i able to get free stuff ? Due to th conditions of my family financial. It's big. But after my sister was born, th burden is even bigger. Not to mention my sis is going to Poly soon, which school fees cost thousands, not hundreds.

But i asked my sis to give me whatever is left behind of her Sec 5 stuffs such as handbooks, guides and textbooks. I'll just go to school like a boss then. Then buying whatever is needed.
Workbooks is a waste of money esp when teachers doesn't use them, worse ; when they only use like 1 chapter. You can't even sell th book offfffff.

In fb, i will always see people writing 'how many likes and i'll do something' such as '100 likes and i'll confess to th guy i like' '100likes and i'll shave botak' '100likes and i'll this that those'.
So, seeing none of th girls saying i'll shave, i've decided to give myself a challenge.
But, without risking myself.
So as seen in th picture above, 1000 likes and i'll shave botak

ONE THOUSAND

Kinda troll ? I think it won't hit 1000likes. Some friends of mine thought i was trolling, cause they asked if i've got 1000 friends on fb even. LOL. But i've around 1.3k.
But thinking of it, by th time it hit even perhaps 300, th post would have been buried deep down below many other posts. Also, some fb friends are so inactive. Hahaah. Me sly ? Me being careful!

Okay it's abit AA la, but whatever, people who do th 'like this status' are super AA, somemore they did it every night, like, wts.

Cassis Berry with sis ytd night and i went to edit her face! Okay don't laugh at mine too, i know mine is no better.

I'm kinda looking forward to what will happen in school, esp when there's some incident these few days, which apparently isn't big but people make a big fuss out of it. Well, at least we saw th true color, which i have see thru long ago.

Also, i've gotten 2 lousy teachers in charge of my class. I can almost predict what will befall our class. So there's a appeal letter coming up right soon to th Principal. LOL.
Speaking of which, I remembered i caused a security in my school to lost his job in my school. Feel kinda bad tho, but there's a heave of relieve at least, for th girls. That security is abit tiko, choosing pretty girls to say hi and bye.

Hahahahah my classmates complaining super on facebook.

Seoul with th people and AWESOME ME.

Top left : Huiling, Peiyi, Peixuan, Junhe, Tuck Seng

Bottom right : Lorraine, Leemei, Weiqin, Zhe hao.

Hahah i suddenly thought i was summarizing my events.
Whatever, but my sis treated me to Seoul on th next day aft i got my results. Cause i did well. And perhaps i did better than her. WAIT. She just got th money to treat me ;x

Fly like a B6

Ziqi, Huifang, Friend of Peiwei, Peiwei, Weilian, Kareen, Lorraine, Yu Jun Cheryl, Peiyi.

First ever B6 outing after th whole restructure. It was awesome tho its super funny at first.

Was on cafe when i took this photo. It touches my heart to see how my Church always gives their best to God. ;') When everyone elses was sleeping in Singapore or around th region, my church is still praying. I'm so glad i'm part of a awesome church, th first 2000.

First time operating on popcorn machine. i'm so amazed :D

Team girls.

Grace, Peiyi, Aerina, Peijun.

Dream team @ Hearts Awards.

From th front : Peiyi, Huiling, Yuan ling, Chen ming.

Hahahha which is better? Th top or bottom one ? I edited th bottom one ! ;x

Alright, time for photos already !
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Okay i've just changed my mind.
I shall just upload few photos among th bulk i wanted to !

(AND IT FREAKING TOOK ME FEW HOURS TO UPLOAD 51 PHOTOS :( )

W/Wanting

Peiyi, Aerina, Peijun

TRIBAL :D

LOL my fat face flat head.

ghost.

Raped

Running from rape

SORRY SORRY SORRRY

Am drawing anime lately. hahaha

Pala! :D

POP CORN @ Brave Heart Screening.

My beautiful eyes ! BIG. Hahahahah.

Sexy mouth ;x

2011-12-25T05:51:00.000+08:00

In my midst of desperation still i'll praise.

It's been so long since i really do a proper post. I was so lazy. So by nature.
Well basically i was spending my weekdays working, and even going to work place when it's not even my working day! I've been accompany my awesome friend huiling as she is always th one that pei me ! :)

It's so good to have such an awesome friend!:)

Wow, it has been ONE year already. Amazing. And my life has been changed so drastically in these 12 months. God indeed is good.

Basically i'm slacking much now, i ain't even feeling a bit of exhaust, tho i'm really tired from th day.

Christmas eve was awesome. My first, official Christmas i've spent. I'm gonna see myself celebrating this joyous occasion of th birth of Jesus, my Saviour, in my future, as i grow older, all th black hairs fading away !

it's 5 45 am now. I wonder what time will i feel tired . i should sleep.

Life is so awesome. At least i wasn't spending all my time thinking about emo stuffs. i didn't feel my heart feeling hurt. Th sinking feeling. It was terrible.

But everything is so diff now ! i'm th one who's there for my friend ;')
Looking back in life, i saw how God was always here for me, when i curled up on th bed crying, God was there - When no one else was, when no one understands. He was there.

2011-12-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

i don't know if you can see this video, but i was recorded down w/o knowing ;x . There's my epic reaction. When i throw th popcorn, and th cleaner went past my table, gave me a shock. Feeling guilty, i went to pick up my litter.

Was packing my bag and found so many rubbish.
What's in my bag ?
1) Spec case. 2) Water bottle. 3) Notebook. 4) Keys. 5) Wallet. 6) Comb. 7) Ipod. 8) Phone. 9) 2x rubber band. 10) Eyeshadow. 11) Schedule book+papers. 12) Lip balm. 13) 1xred rubber band. 14) Eyeliner. 15) 6xpens.

I digged my bag again and found somemore things.
15) 7x pens. 16) Wristbands 17) Used tissues. 18) broken parts of handphone case.

This is th pop corn left over by Huiling and Eileen. I think they didn't eat it. To think i ate finish my whole popcorn(small), and even poured some over from theirs !

READ AND VIEW MORE PHOTOS ! V

Opps i'm sorry to whoever is these. ;x

Eileen is camera shy :(

huiling rocking her hairs off.

Hahah sexy pedo look.

'WANTFIGHT AH ? DIAO SIMI'

wait, why is there another vid here ;o

movie tic! :)

Cheers to Mac's small coke in Mosburger.

OOOOH POPCORNS.

Take a peek of my coke thru my straw :)

Eileen's sexy ears :>

NO. :(

oh. you're gonna have a nightmare tonight :>

My smelly foot.

Our moon in train!

Actually i put my cam into eileen's poster which is being rolled up! This is with flash! Those on top was w/o ! :)

Kua simi

Diao, Diao simi

Oh again.

POOF, You are blessed x;

OOOOOOOOH HUILING IS SCARY

Dued photos! With Claire :) Hijacking Yujun's phone!

@ MFM with Lorraine, Huiling, Chenming

@ Th newwater place. Lazy people sit down.

Prom! Uploaded some photos of prom! :)
W/ Brenna, Syaf, Sherryn, Khairin, Peiyi

4Hyperlicious

W/ Brenna together with our constipated face :)

Art Students tgt with Ms.Kong.

4H before th start !

Okay i'm fat. Photos and angles and pose deceive.

DUED MONTHS AGO. W/ Joe in Art room gallery. Slacking and hijacking Eileen's ipod.

Cool ! Somebody do it with me!

My nails for prom !

Patrick/Sam.J 's treat :D
Something chocolate something :> . I choose it on th net from starbuck's menu ;x

Ming^2 having her hair perm !

My eyes for prom! Contacts with Eyeliner and Mascara and eyeshadow!

W/ Leemei! :)

Th girls outside Felicia's house getting rdy for prom!
Mingming, Emily, Leemei, Peiyi, Felicia

With my clutch and my fat legs. Oh look at that tear of my stockings.

W/ Dyon

Darren and Dyon kissing :>

W/ a old Caucasian man.

W/ John's blazor!

W/ Lorraine! Love th shot! Thanks leemei :)

Heart Of God Church audi sketch by me ! :) Had monochrome edited on it to show th ink for my sketch! :)

Went out with Sis to hunt for her working pants! Haven't been out tgt with her for a long long time.

On th Mrt > HG with my koi! :)

This is Nomlicious! Paste :>

Nice editing ? :> Lorraine's face is th MRT floor :>

Huiling and me with our Friend!

My school's toilet. Make me sad :(

NOM ! Tampopo's

Thanks Elvin for this webcam! :)

Coke float ! :) . Aerina&Peiyi's with Peijun's.

Espresso :> Aerina in action .

This was like during th N period. I think ;o

Jayden's first month :)

I think i took this photo because i was missing school for a few times aft 'N', and i was finally wearing my Uniform again.

My hair oiled with baby oil. For my extensions as it's very frizzy at its end. So th color ain't obvious!

Was walking home and saw this. Thought of Eileen. LAVENDER.

Choir! Making up in toilet. Theme : checkered :)

Was worshipping God tgt with th girls. Wanting's ipad. :) Lyrics on screen .

Going home from class chalet a week or so ago, bus 109.

Tampopo's !

MFM's halloween! I drew this on their serviettes !

It was so kind of Huiling to prepare breakfast for me :)) . Milo and peanut butter creamed Juilete's biscuits! But i was still coughing on Wed !

TAMPOPO !!!

Hahah that's all for this photo post ! :))

Stay tune for more :) !

Do leave your name at th tagboard right up there ^^^^^^^^^^

Th Lord is Good. Always. Forever.

So you really know me ?

2011-11-28T02:40:00.000+08:00

You think you really know me, but, we don't even talk. Why judge ?

I'm waiting for my upload to be done right now, and it's taking my forever. Apparently, i'm having th flu bug. It's been with me since friday.
I've been watching my Twilight sage these few days. I'm going crazy over Jacob again.
I thought, Twilight is my fairy tale . I thought i could have it too. But i considered it again. I'm me. Myself. I will have my own unique one. God has alr drawn out my path. I'll entrust everything into His hands.

I've given up trying to initiate already. I've initiated for so many times, but you just killed it.

Then i went to look at your conversations with other girls . Well, how different.

Okay shall stop talking about it. If a guy really like you, he will chase you, no matter what happened before. Anyways, he should be mature enough. Or, i am th one who's mature in th thinking here.

Watched 'Apple of my eye' last week, and i remember a quote saying - A girl will always be too mature than a guy of th same age' . I've to give a five to that.

I like, man. I don't like, boys. Well, to be exact, i like gentleman. Perhaps it's hard to find this kind since we're talking about Singapore here. I mean, from my past experiences and my friends', stalked, seems like everyone is so childish.
I am childish too. But how i wish, i could really meet a gentleman. Literally, a gentleman.

Disappointed.

Enough of this.

Friends, we can know each other, but do you know about me ? Seriously, th me inside, not just what you have seen.
People always like to act smart. They thought they know you, and tends to judge you from what they saw. But they don't even know who're you, even tho they know your existence. They don't know what you like to do, they don't know th fun you always like to have. They don't know you at all.

I believe, my blog is th only place where i will really blog my heart out, maybe because i'm more comfortable with words, and i always think. Talking isn't really something i've practice. And also, blogging is different from telling someone something face to face about your heart felts. At least, you won't feel awkward while trying to tell, or even considering to tell. Blogging makes you feels better after writing, publishing it and letting people to read it, to read what's on your mind.

I've been really neglecting my blog so much huh. It's been so long since i've posted things like this. Well i kinda lost touch. Laughs.

0/68 >:(

Seriously, i want to laugh when i heard that there's people who like me. I've never even thought of it. Well, i never really thought i was a girl whom people will like. Who am i ?

But, it is all a funny thing. People tends to stop pursuing like what they claimed. Adding more to my disappointments. Guys.. maybe boys.

I'm only 16. But i think too much.

How about some photos people?:)

Okay. So it's like more than half an hour since i'm trying to upload just 68 photos up onto blogger. but only 5 have been . So i guess i'll call it a off now. I should resume tomorrow noon.

I should seriously rest well. I'm still sick. And th reason why i came home early today from church is to rest early, but what have i been thinking ? Too much.

Everything i once held dear

2011-11-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

I count it all as lost.

Caught 'Apple of my eyes' with Eileen and Huiling. When i saw th movie trailer, i thought i've seen it before when i was younger. I guess there was a drama or movie of this before!
This movie is worth th catch! It is NC16, and i really think it is really NC16. LOL. Th lead actress is super hot and cute, and th one in black belt in 1 scene is too! They keep 'banging'. And i love th scene where th lead actress was learning english late at night at th balcony, and th neighbor opposite th building shouted at him. Th following is hilarious.

Going to th ending, i realised that it is similar to th situation i'm facing now. :/
Yes. You have found. So suitable. Alright. Shan't emo :)

Anws, had a fun talk with huiling and eileen. And we had some photos and a vid of me with epic reaction.

So, i went for prom last friday, and kinda enjoyed myself! Taken lots of photos.

And i realised he had a change of heart so quickly ;o!

Recently resumed DC class again ! What a privilege to hear testimonies share among th small group. So close to heart. Everytime when i hear th stories, no matter whether it's a small sharing session or just people sharing about what's on their mind, i always feel like crying. Because i know, God is real.

Anyways, i'll upload th photos of prom and today's movie outing later on , or tomorrow! :)

Day 12- The person i hate most/caused me a lot of pain.

2011-11-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

You are your only competitor. You are your only devil. You are your only chain. You are your only pain. You are your only hope. You are your only jail.

Hey people. I haven't blog in ages and i'm so not inspired to blog at all, furthermore i'm lazy. But, looking at my dead web, then i realised i haven't been doing th letter challenge. I've dragged it for almost a year. Hahah.

Th person ~~i hate most~~/caused me a lot of pain. That is me. I caused all th pains i've been suffering.

To be over emotional, to slit myself, to always cry out in silent, to always cry myself to sleep, that is me. That used to be me.

I've thought it through. Whatever that happened in th past, no matter whether it's about relationship problems, or friend's problems, i will always wallop in self pity, when i can choose th latter. I can choose another perspective to th problem, and not locking another chain onto myself.
For th past 16 years of my life i could enjoy, but i suffer, only because of myself.

Day 12- The person i hate most/caused me a lot of pain.

Life.

2011-10-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

Falling a thousand feet per second.

Hello people ! It's been so long since i've blog. Hahah ! I'm terribly lazy to even do a proper post !

Short updates ba ! Many times i've been inspired to blog, but i'm always lazy. Laziness is such a whore. I have to overcome it myself too. So th problem lies mostly with me !

Alright, so i've found another job, it's at clarke quay ! Awesome :) . I'm not doing it on weekends. Gonna keep it for my dates with God. ;)

Anyways, i'm going to sell away some of my clothes. Some clothes are those which i've bought on impulse, and i didn't even wear it once. Some i've worn once or twice. Some i've wore it a few times, but it's perfectly fine ! Gonna upload th photo into fb, but apparently, fb seems to have problems, or perhaps it's just me. LOL.

Alright, now it's 12+ and i'm gonna sleep soon. See, i'm lazy again. Alright, promise to be inspired to blog some post !

Here's some photos !

BBQ over at Brenna's 16 :)

Halloween eve at MFM w Huiling, Chen Ming and Lorraine&MFM crew

Learning journey to boring places.

gay shot taken by eileen of my face

oh jiao bin

Hahhaha hazik

hahah nurul :)

oh th cute boy while we're playing captain's ball and volley ball !

training day for TCC

working day !